So, here I am, a geek lost in the world wide web. A little background. I have always been a geek, it’s in my blood. My dad is a computer engineer and for as long as I can remember I have been into computers. Even playing with a broken keyboard as a toy when I was a child. As I grew older, I started to become aware of my inherent geekiness, and started to force it down, to fit in. I was of course bullied and made fun of throughout school and only had a few close friends. Sometimes I think back and wonder if I had just given in to my geekside and not fought it, if I might have found a place to fit in.
College was pretty much the same. Even though I took computers, I still didn’t manage to find my place. And even in the jobs I had after college, I still seemed to be fighting with fitting in and being myself. And I think a lot of people struggle with that in their lives, even into adulthood. It’s a tough place to be in.
But as I got older, maybe it was the age maturing me, I started to not care and just accept who I was. I started being myself, saying what I truly thought, and just having fun with life. And I actually felt good about it. And now I am not ashamed to admit who I am.
I am a geek, a nerd, a computer fiend. I am a weirdo spaz who randomly claps for no reason and says bizarre things. I love toilet humour and silly jokes. I love putting hats on my cats and laughing at them. I love geek humour and zombies. (omg do I love zombies). I love horror movies, the cheesier the better. And I LOVE anything weird or bizarre or out there.
I am not afraid to admit who I am, and I think that gives me confidence, that I lacked for so many years. I am not afraid to do embarrassing things in public if I find it funny.
So why am I here writing a blog about being lost? Well, even though it’s apparent how awesome I am, I still feel like I don’t quite have a place, and I am trying to find it.
I plan to use this blog to share the places I have tried in the past (some of which I still stay in, holding onto a piece of belonging) and what I plan to do in the future.
Maybe at the end of this journey I will find my place.